You Gotta Have Heart (and lungs and kidneys...)

Hey There....I'm Back,

In many ways I'm Back...First, I have decided to begin sharing my thought, laughs and stories with the blogisphere again. It has quite a bit of time since I last wrote here. Secondly I am back and starting to feel physically better after my whole Month of Illnesses. It has been truly humbling to get so many email and Facebook comments and prayers. So many wonderful and caring people....Thank You!

I have to say that sadly I have grown used to this whole hospital thing. I have now been to all 4 of the local Hospitals in the Green Bay area and may in a future blog give you a Dining Review of their..cough...cough.. delightful cuisine. I was at the last hospital so long that one nurse thought I had gone home and returned for a second visit.

Now, If you have read all of my past blog entries, you will know that I have been through much physically...from my foot's infection and later amputation to my Muscular Dystrophy and my coding 3 times in the hospital. Through it all, I attempt to have a good humor and I try to be a patient with patience. People have always told me that I am amazing for my attitude. I truly don't think I have a choice. I guess I could be angry or mad at the world, but that gets me nowhere.

I will be honest....This time truly affected me. I can deal with pneumonia and infection, but hearing the words HEART ATTACK....It's jarring...It's life changing....it's scary. Then they say there is damage to the heart....(even scarier). They could not do any surgery because of my weight, plus I had some kind of infection (still not sure what was infected) My lungs where having some problems because of my MD and my kidneys went nuts too. They wanted me to get well enough to clean out my arteries with a catheter...Never happened but still might after tests are done mid May. After 3 days in the Hospital, my lungs decided to not work so I lost 2 days on a ventilator. I did continue the wonderful tradition of giving my Brother the finger every time he entered my room...Ahhh Family Traditions! I do remember him reading all the Facebook messages to me when i could not speak. They truly felt like a warm blanket. I also remember my Beloved Mother sitting on my bed beside me....comforting me.

When I got home, I was very weak...I had not sat up in 14 days...Slowly, I get stronger...Kidneys are repairing. I did have a quick trip back to the hospital last weekend and learned that I have a nice case of Vertigo caused by a stone in my ear canal (from all the laying down)  Luckily medication is helping the dizziness  I have to get well since I have a ticket to see Billy Elliott in June, So that is good incentive to remain well.

I do have to say that I have lots of question....Why am I still here? What am I meant to do with this life? A few days after I cam home, A High School classmate passed away of a heart attack....He was on the football team...Why him? So many things I don't understand...Maybe this is how I will find the answers.
I guess questions are good.

Well thats all for now...Thanks for reading!

BE WELL,  LIVE LIFE AND BE SUPERB!

R