Starting Over

It was two years ago today that my life started over again. It was the day that I died three times in the hospital. Today I am thinking of all the things I never would have gotten to do if the talented and skilled Doctors had not brought me back.

I would not be writing this blog, I would not have seen my wonderful nephews graduate high school and go off to college. I would not have seen my younger nephew star in "Suessical the Musical". I would not have connected with so many people on Facebook. I would have missed the births of the children of many friends and family. I would have never been able to experience wonderful shows like "Wicked" and see "Rent" for the 3rd time and with my best friend Kathy for the 1st time. I would have missed the love and laugter that I get daily from Papa. I would have not seen the first African American man elected to the Presidency. So much I would have missed.

It was a rebirth in so many ways...While in the hospital for 40 Days (biblical huh..)I lost over 70 pounds (not a diet I recommend for everyone). Before I went into the hospital, I was an insulin dependent diabetic, When I left...I was off of Insulin. By the time I left the hospital, the heal ulcer that I entered the hospital for was nearly all healed and the surgery had been a full success. While my rehab had been difficult. I came out of the hospital healthier than I had been in a whole.

Many people have asked me if I saw the light or anything when I died, Unfortunately I don't remember anything like that. After I woke up from the induced coma, I do remember closing my eyes and seeing many twinkling lights and purple unicorns, but I was on real good drugs too. Leave it to a gay man to see purple unicorns..lol. It is a very strange feeling to lose a whole week or so of your life. People who were in the ICU would come in to tell me that my survival was a miracle they rarely saw people in my condition actually survive. Hearing all the stories and reading my Dad's email to my family really blow my mind, it feels like they are talking about someone else. The whole experience is hard to get my head around.

It became clear to me that this all happened for a reason and I am still here because I still have something to do with my life. I'm still not clear on what that is but I look forward to seeing where my life takes me. Interestingly..I received a call from my old College the other night . I spoke with a lovely Bahamian student..She was looking to update records and of course get a donation. While I couldn't donate, I did tell her that I regretted never finishing my Bachelors Degree.
She passed that info on to the Dean and I received a nice email from him this morning. We are scheduled to speak on the phone. Who knows, maybe there is a way to finish the degree online. Maybe its meant to be..

So on this anniversary of one of the worst days of my life. I cherish ever day, I treasure my family and friends and invite tomorrow to be an adventure. I thank everone who rides this rollercoaster with me. It's good to be alive!
Be Here, Be Now, Be Superb
R